Somewhere to Start

Within these last few weeks before I leave I try to balance my life- my to do lists, my shopping lists, my obligations, my interests, I reach out and be social with friends, I reconnect with old friends who I haven't spoken to in years, I spend time with my family, and my cat. I juggle the six hour time difference between my Fiance and I. 

I'm leaving in eight days and the last few weeks have been difficult, lots of changes and lots of arranging. I know this trip is not the permanent move yet, but it is in a way- is it not? I come back in six weeks, but I come back married- soon to be a Swedish resident and eventually citizen. Its a long road, a journey even, and I want to look back as much as I need to look forward because I know I am leaving some things behind and things will change. My friends and family will remain, but things will change. It was strange seeing half of my possessions on a sidewalk being sold for a dollar or two just to get rid of these things I used to love, just to make a few bucks. Change is strange- catchy and appropriate...I think I'll start a blog. 

I am excited and nervous. Anxious with anticipation. Mostly excited. I start a new life soon. I want to take this time to compare my life now to what it will be, my life in the future to what it was. New Yorker to Swed. Single to married. Girl to woman.